God's spirit flows through an open heart

As long as the heart is not sealed closed there is space for the spirit of God to flow through, for His love to bust open the seams (openness to accept the destruction of the outerselves). Only after accepting and welcoming the ideals of life that have been destroyed can I welcome the true real purpose of what IS.

As the skin of the grapefruit are bitter
and the layers of onion need peeling
so does the sinful nature of ourselves
As Lord peels away the bitterness
we taste His sweetness
Without the skin of the fruit
or the shell of the nut
they would not produce good meat
The need shelter while they mature
Without the sun and the rain
they would not grow and produce

Cup of Grace

I am thinking back to all those special moments of divine grace that have brought me much joy. I realize they came after expressing a grateful heart, Oozing with love, peace, fulfillment and thankful for ALL that got me to that place. All including the tough knocks that dropped me to my knees. Those great times of darkness and struggles through the valley. Feeling so blessed that He patiently waited as I crossed over to the land of milk and honey. Feeling complete awe as He showed me His presence through it all. How the Kingdom of God is here, within me. How His Glory is shown to those who love and trust Him. The more I trusted, the less proof I needed and the more He gave!!!!! Feeling the absoute most fulfilled, enlightened, open hearted, grateful for all, healed and WHOLE as I get in my car entering the interstate, smiling, praising God for all that is and needing absolutely nothing and what do I see? The odometer on my car reads 77777 and the other gauges are reading completely full, beyond the normal averages, I blink my eyes and look again and all I can do is smile, LOL at how awesome and giving my Lord is. Later that week as I am reading my bible I am reminded of the biblical meaning of 7, COMPLETE, WHOLE!!!!!! He confirms what I know has already happened. I have been made whole, healed and complete through Christ. The seed planted has brought new life. I have died to live. A new journey has begun, I now know what it feels like to want to live!!!! I don't recall ever feeling this, I have begged to die for so long and overcome by the guilt of feeling ungrateful for life. I beg for forgiveness for wanting the easy way out, I just wanted to meet my Lord, my all, my everything that mattered to me.

Quiet time

Struggling somewhat to stay balanced. No matter how slow I go life seems to be speeding by. All I can do is continually breathe and focus. Staying balanced is harder than I expected. Guess that is where I went wrong (expecting). Lots of decisions to make now that the new project is coming to completion. Trying to block out the opinions of what everyone else wants and yet still considering all sides. Lord I ask for your divine intervention, plant your ideas. Holy Spirit calm my thoughts and send your peace. My intention is to follow the path that has been laid out. My intention is to serve those that are planted in my path. My faith is planted firmly in my creator, I know all will work out. The challenge is to stay calm and open to whatever life sends my way without giving into anxiety. This is no easy task for me. Staying quiet helps me stay firmly planted in my Lord..... The risk is falling into passivity and doing nothing at all.

Mastering balance

My mind is in submission to my inner self. My body is loose and rested. My home is in order. My spirit is happy and calm. I am staying mindful to this process of balance as I prepare to return to work. Today I begin incorporating boundaries into my work day. First, was awareness of the problem. Then the desire to change things. Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. So today I claim my sanity. I have struggled with this for over 13 years and finally feel encouraged. Thank you Lord for opening my eyes and ears to the wisdom within. I see boundaries everywhere, your natural process of this world. Around the water, in the clouds, on the sidewalks, even animals know their boundaries, and small children look around before they cross one. Being aware of these has shown me that it is natural and internal. We, our deepest inner being, already know what is necessary to live a purpose driven, divinely lead life with balance and joy and wholeness. Once we remove the busyness, chaos, obstacles, and deception from our view we can see clearly. Boundaries are necessary to find balance and maintain calm while living a spirit lead life. Staying mindful and aware will allow the voice from within to warn of any opposing force bullying its way in. This peace is worthy of protection, equipped by the armour of God, we are prepared to guard against theives and intruders who sneak their way in. Heavenly father keep your hand on me for protection as I continue on this journey that I have named The Call of Creation. I am created to serve with a joyful heart to improve the space that surrounds me.

Women of retreat

We search and gather pieces
everywhere we go
sticks and boxes and little trinkets
love and hope and tiny seeds of faith
hurts and hugs
smiles and tears
stories and dreams
pain and pleasure
photos and flowers
we yearn to connect
we stretch for freedom
we open for healing
we seek darkness for sight
and silence for direction
laughter and dancing
fire and water
branches and breath
we are one
we slowly depart
and float away
skimming the earth
when passing by
leaving tiny particles
everywhere we touch
our hearts grow bigger
our soul finds home
we are one

Calm from within

The water stands still
as does my mind
Little circles appear
then gently go away
It shines like glass
reflecting love from around
Life slowly ripples through it
in its own unique way
gently passing by
never to be the same
Below the surface
the eye cannot see
but in the present moment
all can be felt as it truly is
Surrounded by much
only few enter in
Many fly over
dropping new life
All the while
He looks over me
Droplets from above
or jumps from below
I remain still from within
I am planted in the earth
I share my very being
with what exist around me
yet I stand still

I am calm, I am happy, I am home

Valentine's Day

Sending love today, especially to those who do not feel it. To those who feel all alone and heavy by the burdens of life I send hope. To those who are lost and cry out in anquish I send peace. To those who are too busy to notice I send silence. The soul within me feels calm and warm and safe. My spirit is light and free. My mind is still yet active. My body is loose and flexible. My ego is quiet and in submission to my inner being. I am happy. I am delightfully joyful. I am grateful for time alone with my divine self, my creator and eternal father. I have purpose and intention to leave this earth a better place. I share the love of my heavely father with all creation and I am open to serve anyone who is sent my way. I will protect the active love and compassion which I shelter within by enforcing safe healthy boundaries. I am receptive to the act of transformation in whatever form it comes. The grace, faith and trust God has blessed me with gives me the power to become calm in the storms and dark nights. For now, I enjoy the mountaintop until the next valley comes my way. Namaste!