The greatest tragedy is not death but life without purpose

God says " I know what I am planning for you, I have good plans for you, not plans to hurt you. I will give you hope and a good future" God is able to do far more than we would ever dare to ask or dream of ... infinitely beyond our hightest prayers, desires, thoughts, or hopes. Lord I ask you to continue to protect me from my own selfish dreams, desires and goals. My commitment is to serving you full heartedly for the purpose that you created me for. I am whole, complete and fulfilled when I am protected by your grace and love. Nothing in this world is more valuable than my relationship with you. Keep your hand upon me protecting my soul from anything that may tempt me to serve anything other than your purpose. Show me your ways, guide me daily and help me to love as you do. Grant me a life of service that is completely fulfilling and joyful. It is not my services but yours done through my body. Your love is the love I share. May my thoughts be guided by you only. May all fear and anxiety of the future vanish and be replaced with your courage, hope, direction and mighty power. Remove the veil from the eyes of the blind and open their minds to your word. Protect my path from lies and deception and false beliefs. Thank you the blessing, the healings, you have bestowed upon this family. May we all serve you wholeheartedly from this generation forward and even those of before that are still here today. I stand firm on your promises of complete healing and wholeness. Step by step...day by day...moment by moment...may each of us listen attentively and actively serve you only, knowing this world can not offer what we most desire, which is unity with you!!

1st yoga class

Father I humble come to you this morning to use me as an instrument of your love. Open my heart and mind to your words, thoughts and ideas. Only you know what your people need. I am ever so grateful for the sense of acceptance and belonging and the awareness to not attach to it. Father have mercy on me, help me to stay in your will and not try to do it my way or in my power. I have no desire for self credit but for you to get all the glory and for your seed to be planted. Help me to fertilize what you have planted through your power only not mine. Lord I never never never want to be out of your will and thrown into the misery of the world. I am ashamed that it doesnt tempt me but I am not ashamed of You and what you have given me. Such wholeness and peace and love. A vessel of your divine love and healing Lord that is my desire for your people to feel you, to know that it is you, to yearn for more of you. Thank you father, keep your hand upon me and protect me from pride and ego. You are my only happiness and fulfillment. Keep me safe from the temptations of the world.

Student for life

Half way through yoga teacher training I have decided I don't want to teach. I want to be a student, I want to be taught. Lord I ask you to take over and allow me to be led by you. I have no idea what anyone needs, including myself. I feel misery led by fear. I need you to take complete control. I can't live like this. I beg you to have mercy on my soul and mind. Whatever you ask of my service is the only peace I have in this life. I am in hell, I am in pain, I am in my own misery. This suffering is total misery. I am lost, I just want to die. What is happening here. Help me please, have mercy and pour your grace upon my soul, clear my mind, clean my heart. Although unworthy of this I ask anyway. Show me father, I beg you to show me the way!!!!

What if

What if... we accepted things as they are? Loved the ones who make our circle? Became satisfied with the life we were given?
Who knows better than our creator himself? Life is this moment. Every moment of every day whether we use it to run from, to run to or to be in. I have come to realize how many rules confuse us. So many teachers in our lives who give us their beliefs, their rules, their advice. The walls that protect us also bind us!!!!
There comes a day when the walls come crumbling down. The day that no rules, attempts or solutions work. The day we become who we are, not who they want us to be!!!! Strong words, I know. So who are WE and who are THEY? You me and them, that's who. We are all alike, all created in God's image. We behave according to what life hands us. Our behavior is not WHO we are, it is HOW we respond. We are constantly changing, life is always changing. We must learn to live, to adapt, to accept or we become trapped in misery. Freedom reigns in each of us, the Freedom of Christ. It is a gift if we choose to accept it.
Live a little!! Let go!! Open hearts love openly.

forward toward forgiveness

How could I expect forgiveness and mercy if I can't be obedient. Once my eyes were opened I became accountable. O Lord forgive me for all my transgressions for all my attempts to find love outside of You. The more time passes the more I see my weaknesses. How can I ever be worthy before You. I beg for divine mercy, cover me in the blood of Christ, protect my soul from evil. Give me courage to move forward as You call me out. O my Lord, I hurt, I groan, I cry in utter despair. Have mercy on the others who live in this house. Support us through this journey, Your will be done. I ask for their sight to be restored, to see Your ways, to plant a seed of faith in his heart and a deep desire to seek You, have mercy on his soul. Guide the little one towards You. Keep Your protective hands upon Him and Your word in his heart. O My God, O My Jesus, O My Lord I cry out to You, have mercy. Grant me Your Grace, increase my faith in You.
My mind cant understand what is happening. Lord I am trusting You completely, I beg for Your assistant and support. Remove evil tactics and deceptive attempts so that I may see You clearly. Show me the way.

overweighted cross

As I gain a few pounds it seems that my burdens have also. The heaviness is felt in my feet, knees and hips. Lord, help me to overcome through your knowledge and goodness. I accept Your will and seek You daily as I move forward. Help me to do to the best of my ability and lean on You for the rest. I know all is done through You, I have not enough power of my own. Without complaint I ask for assistance to continue in a positive manner. I swallow the bitterness of suffering for the lives in purgatory and the lost of this world. May You continue to call them out and remove the veils from their eyes and the clutter from their lives and mine also. Protect my soul o Lord, keep your hand upon me. Put roadblocks where you choose to keep me from and green lights where you want me to continue. In Your faith I serve You. Forgive me for complaining and for trying to do more than possible by my own will. Thank you for the trials that have made my faith more rooted in You. How grateful I am for the opportunity to serve You.

After

After soaring high with you Father, I sit lowly, in pain and weak. By your example, teach me Lord. I am so weak and useless without you. I fail in my own power and in success I give you all glory for I am nothing without You. Show me the way to making the best of this situation. You have planted me here, You have cultivated the land, watered me and even weeded my surroundings. Now I am in full bloom through Your nurturing yet my pedals are limp this morning. My roots dig deeper for more of You. Lord, send Your agents of the land to show me what is poisoning me. Until then my roots hold tight and draw more of You, hoping for just a drop of Your water to help lift the weakness.
My soul knows that drought is necessary but my limp body doesn't understand and seeks nourishment from the land or shelter from the heat. It cries out for hydration and shade and protection from the feet that stomp over me. My hope is to become beautiful and strong for encouragement of others. That they may enjoy Your glory, Your favour, and put all hope in You as they draw bits of You from deep in my soul. Lord you have blessed me so, how can I ever thank you. I am so weak, after so much love You have poured on and in me, how can I possibly sit here and complain. I am only sad of the time this suffering takes from doing Your work. My heart desire is to spread You as far as I can reach. To show Your power and sovereign love to those who lack in faith. I can never thank you for all You have done and given but I can strive to serve You with gratitude. I have no strength of my own body but I have faith in the strength You will provide me to do Your Will.
Lord I pray to all the angels and saints who can intervene for me, to ask for their assistance to pray to You the Lord and God of all. Pray for heavenly wisdom and knowledge and understanding of this weak and useless body. Pray for improvement for Your usage. I accept whatever cross you send for the good of all. I only ask for your divine grace and mercy to endure. I owe You everything and only want time in eternity with You. I can only do what You will me to do. You have full and complete control of my soul, You dwell within and direct my thoughts, actions, words. Your will be done on earth as it is in Heaven. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Amen