Night travels

Lord I am not sure what is going on. It feels as though something is pulling me in. Is this you? I felt one release into stillness but came right back. When I awaken I often feel I was edging back there. What are you showing me? I love the way you teach and I trust you to slowly show me the way. I feel as though this is You. I know You are there. I hesitate letting go. I have no knowledge of this kind of thing. Am I gonna be a weirdo? I already feel different from others and live in a bubble amongst this earth. I am only happy when surrounded by You. I don't think I ever truly belonged here. I don't want to talk about nonsense and casual conversation and I am impatient
and untolerable to the normal earthly behavior. Lord I have to learn to stay in the present without allowing these feelings to move me. It is so difficult and awkward, this statement is without complaining. I am just not sure how to have relationship and conversation without You in it. Nothing else seems important or worthy. My prayer request this morning is for myself, may You show me these things in order for me to be a better person of Christ. I have no other desire or purpose but to serve You. All I need is to belong to You. These are all your people who You desire to save and they will know it one day whether they miss the call or answer it. I am humbled when I say that I will remain a fruit loop as long as I live in this world, it is the only way I can continue on this journey. I depend, trust and rely on You alone. Father I beg You not to desert me and leave me all alone. I will surely die without You, please continue to protect my soul so that I will be with You one day. There is no place to rest my head and I want to go home.

I know I have to stay, this just does not make sense to my mind but speaks clearly to my soul. O my God please show me that I am not insane, crazy with made up thoughts, I don't know anyone else who thinks this way.

Glory again

As I pray for Your healing touch to be poured amongst Your people, I am given a bit of it myself. You prune us of our love and thoughts and refill us with Your love and thoughts so that we may love others with the love of CHRIST. Today, I see the same with work, I am thinking of the limitations that have been placed on myself. I know this huge force which is causing me great distraction is coming from You. You showed me that we will die to our love for one another and we will know true love when we begin to love with Your love(unconditional). The same is happening with this business. Not by my power but by yours. I acknowledge You have formed this business and the success is Your but being such a merciful God that Your are, You have come to show me, to remove ANY doubts I may have!!!! Without a shadow of a doubt I will know that Your hand is upon me and that You deserve ALL credit, All praise, ALL glory. This can only be done if I am left empty and open!!!! What is faith when the outcome is clear? Faith is not knowing and still believing!! Not seeing, not doing, not understanding and yet believing!!!! This faith is the not human faith but DIVINE FAITH!! Thank You Father, Christ, Lord, Deliverer, Saviour, Teacher, Guardian, Lifesupporter and the very core of my being. You are my true source of life, without you is darkness and death!! Take me if ever I choose to think of turning from You. Lord have mercy on my soul, protect me from evil and continue to guide my every step.

Stillness remains

Internal stillness remains and change continues externally. I remain firmly planted as life is constantly moving. Why are we so aggravated and upset by change?? Is it really about the one who changes it?? Thank you Lord for the gift of sight this morning as I understand the truth. It is about the one who is aggravated, the one who chooses not to accept change as it comes. We are not to be conformed to this world but are to remain in the truth at all times. How do we go through life calmly as it continuously changes???
What is happening around us is not happening IN us and it is not being done TO us!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Matter a fact it is not even ABOUT us. Whew~ it is exactly what it is... change. Seasons change, our bodies change, our thoughts change, our children change, our vision changes.Yet, WE(the Christ within us) when firmly planted remain the same.

Once we allow Christ to truly live within us he consumes who we are and we become ONE. We begin to think like Him, love like Him, suffer like Him and Be like Him. When we wake up to the truth, accept life as it truly is, happiness suddenly comes forward. We begin to love all with unconditional love.

We begin to accept things as they truly are instead of believing they should be another way. We realize that the things we struggle with have come from the teachers of the world. Have you ever questioned where you learned certain beliefs from? Who comes to mind when you think about the things you struggle with?
Today, ask Christ within what you need to know and watch the truth unfold, the peace return, the confusion leave and happiness arise!!

Faith!!

I have to say I am amazed with God's loyalty. He says come to me for all things and believe. Even something as small as a lost wallet has improved my faith. I didn't KNOW this for sure and it seemed so small to ask for this to be found. But God showed me just how powerful and faithful He is to those who truly believe. I just knew to get up and go look for a wallet that was lost at a fair, my mind knowing this was just not practical and my faith saying yes it is!!!! WOW, I am impressed once again. The fair had a record breaking night with so much attendance. He uses these situations to show His favor and love for us. This is opportunity for Him to show His power to those who lack in faith or question His Goodness. How could I not tell others just how good my Heavenly Father really is. Most people believe it is unlikely that money will be recovered especially in this situation, this WAS true for myself also. But I did KNOW that my God is faithful and was urging me to BELIEVE in Him. This was not about recovering the wallet but about recovering the trust to a faithful God, knowing that ALL things are possible with Him. Lord, I ask for this to touch others, especially my son, who asked for it to be found. I pray that he knows it is You who came through for him, that You have showed favor to Your followers as encouragement to continue trusting and believing. I give You all the Glory and Praise!!