Romans 8:38

Lord, I come to you this morning seeking restoration. Restore my saddened heart. I have come to terms with being powerless over this marriage. I can not provide something that is not in my power. I do not think I am what he expects from a wife. I have given this up to you long ago and today it continues on the same dead end. If You choose this to be my path, I accept it and move forward. If it is not God have mercy on me, I trust You will take care of me. I have done and continue to do all that I can to bring him joy and happiness. I am very sad and humbled. I am ashamed and feel inadequately judged. I weep for the only real family I have had. I am sorry for anything I could have done better. I can honestly say that I have searched my heart and tested my motives and given it my all. I have no idea where to go from here. I fear that our actions will divert Dillon. Lord I beg you to protect him and give me the strength, knowledge and wisdom to guide him towards You.

God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. 29For God knew his people in advance, and he chose them to become like his Son, so that his Son would be the firstbornn among many brothers and sisters. 30And having chosen them, he called them to come to him. And having called them, he gave them right standing with himself. And having given them right standing, he gave them his glory.

Jesus intercede for my soul. Show me the way to love, life and God's Glory. By your teachings and examples I see kindness, love, understanding and faith. Show me how you knew what to do. When to continue and when to let go. There is nothing here that brings me joy. I feel so alone and disconnected from everyone. The loneliness is painful, I am humble, I am weak, I only have life through You, the rest is just death. I am limited and lost without You. Keep me calm and focused, give me strength and hope and desire. Lift me up into the heavens. Forgive my weakness and hopelessness. Forgive my suggestions for death. Teach me to live as You brought my here to do.

As for today, this moment, give me what I need and send me where I need to go. Fulfill Your plan while I am calm and hopeful in You. Have mercy and cover me with your grace. My God My God I beg You to take care of me.