Do it anyway!!

Do everything as if you were performing for God personally. Integrity is doing the best you can at any given time for no apparent reason. Doing your best because you know it is just the right thing to do. Who are you hurting if you take shortcuts because you are upset that others are coming out ahead after doing less? I believe this behavior is envy. You really want to do the right thing but don't want the others to come out ahead for not doing it also. The parable of the laborers discusses this exact matter.

Instead of worrying about others coming out ahead, focus on doing the right thing because you are capable, knowledgable, and have integrity!!! Do it out of gratitude for Christ, I imagine he really didn't want to be on that cross!! But He did it for you anyway!!

Thank you Lord for blessing me with talents, kindness, love, compassion and a sound mind. I am grateful and feel honored to serve you. Despite the trials, hurts, disppointments, and discouragements in this world I am hopeful in your plan and purpose. Despite my broken heart I continue to feel your love flowing through it. I gladly carry my cross out of respect and gratefulness. I am dying to earthly attachments with faith of growing in You. Until we meet again I serve You to the best of my ability. Have mercy on me Father and continue to protect my soul. There is nothing worthy in me except for You.

Romans 8:38

Lord, I come to you this morning seeking restoration. Restore my saddened heart. I have come to terms with being powerless over this marriage. I can not provide something that is not in my power. I do not think I am what he expects from a wife. I have given this up to you long ago and today it continues on the same dead end. If You choose this to be my path, I accept it and move forward. If it is not God have mercy on me, I trust You will take care of me. I have done and continue to do all that I can to bring him joy and happiness. I am very sad and humbled. I am ashamed and feel inadequately judged. I weep for the only real family I have had. I am sorry for anything I could have done better. I can honestly say that I have searched my heart and tested my motives and given it my all. I have no idea where to go from here. I fear that our actions will divert Dillon. Lord I beg you to protect him and give me the strength, knowledge and wisdom to guide him towards You.

God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. 29For God knew his people in advance, and he chose them to become like his Son, so that his Son would be the firstbornn among many brothers and sisters. 30And having chosen them, he called them to come to him. And having called them, he gave them right standing with himself. And having given them right standing, he gave them his glory.

Jesus intercede for my soul. Show me the way to love, life and God's Glory. By your teachings and examples I see kindness, love, understanding and faith. Show me how you knew what to do. When to continue and when to let go. There is nothing here that brings me joy. I feel so alone and disconnected from everyone. The loneliness is painful, I am humble, I am weak, I only have life through You, the rest is just death. I am limited and lost without You. Keep me calm and focused, give me strength and hope and desire. Lift me up into the heavens. Forgive my weakness and hopelessness. Forgive my suggestions for death. Teach me to live as You brought my here to do.

As for today, this moment, give me what I need and send me where I need to go. Fulfill Your plan while I am calm and hopeful in You. Have mercy and cover me with your grace. My God My God I beg You to take care of me.

Idle words

Father forgive my impatience and negative attitude. I ask you to forgive my words of death, asking you to remove me from my current
position. I realize this sadness is from life not turning out exactly as I imagined. I am exhausted from trying to do things that are not in my power. Instead of death I ask for life. Bless me Lord with your presence and attitude. Forgive my cowardness to continue, pride in Your blessings and righteousness. I thank you and respect your gifts, they are exactly that, gifts that you chose to give. Not gifts that I worked for or deserved. Any power or blessings come from You for your purpose. I detach from any and all that take me from your service. Continue to protect my soul from evil and show me your ways to live. Give me strength to continue and remove the blinders that prevent me from seeing pride, self righteousness, or any other selfish sins. I beg for your forgiveness and compassion. I am ashamed and in need of your mercy and forgiveness. Help me to keep my words to a minimum and my ears wide open. I am humbled, thank you Lord for allowing me to see. Grant me strength to continue forward with an open heart filled with your love understanding and compassion.

Night travels

Lord I am not sure what is going on. It feels as though something is pulling me in. Is this you? I felt one release into stillness but came right back. When I awaken I often feel I was edging back there. What are you showing me? I love the way you teach and I trust you to slowly show me the way. I feel as though this is You. I know You are there. I hesitate letting go. I have no knowledge of this kind of thing. Am I gonna be a weirdo? I already feel different from others and live in a bubble amongst this earth. I am only happy when surrounded by You. I don't think I ever truly belonged here. I don't want to talk about nonsense and casual conversation and I am impatient
and untolerable to the normal earthly behavior. Lord I have to learn to stay in the present without allowing these feelings to move me. It is so difficult and awkward, this statement is without complaining. I am just not sure how to have relationship and conversation without You in it. Nothing else seems important or worthy. My prayer request this morning is for myself, may You show me these things in order for me to be a better person of Christ. I have no other desire or purpose but to serve You. All I need is to belong to You. These are all your people who You desire to save and they will know it one day whether they miss the call or answer it. I am humbled when I say that I will remain a fruit loop as long as I live in this world, it is the only way I can continue on this journey. I depend, trust and rely on You alone. Father I beg You not to desert me and leave me all alone. I will surely die without You, please continue to protect my soul so that I will be with You one day. There is no place to rest my head and I want to go home.

I know I have to stay, this just does not make sense to my mind but speaks clearly to my soul. O my God please show me that I am not insane, crazy with made up thoughts, I don't know anyone else who thinks this way.

Glory again

As I pray for Your healing touch to be poured amongst Your people, I am given a bit of it myself. You prune us of our love and thoughts and refill us with Your love and thoughts so that we may love others with the love of CHRIST. Today, I see the same with work, I am thinking of the limitations that have been placed on myself. I know this huge force which is causing me great distraction is coming from You. You showed me that we will die to our love for one another and we will know true love when we begin to love with Your love(unconditional). The same is happening with this business. Not by my power but by yours. I acknowledge You have formed this business and the success is Your but being such a merciful God that Your are, You have come to show me, to remove ANY doubts I may have!!!! Without a shadow of a doubt I will know that Your hand is upon me and that You deserve ALL credit, All praise, ALL glory. This can only be done if I am left empty and open!!!! What is faith when the outcome is clear? Faith is not knowing and still believing!! Not seeing, not doing, not understanding and yet believing!!!! This faith is the not human faith but DIVINE FAITH!! Thank You Father, Christ, Lord, Deliverer, Saviour, Teacher, Guardian, Lifesupporter and the very core of my being. You are my true source of life, without you is darkness and death!! Take me if ever I choose to think of turning from You. Lord have mercy on my soul, protect me from evil and continue to guide my every step.

Stillness remains

Internal stillness remains and change continues externally. I remain firmly planted as life is constantly moving. Why are we so aggravated and upset by change?? Is it really about the one who changes it?? Thank you Lord for the gift of sight this morning as I understand the truth. It is about the one who is aggravated, the one who chooses not to accept change as it comes. We are not to be conformed to this world but are to remain in the truth at all times. How do we go through life calmly as it continuously changes???
What is happening around us is not happening IN us and it is not being done TO us!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Matter a fact it is not even ABOUT us. Whew~ it is exactly what it is... change. Seasons change, our bodies change, our thoughts change, our children change, our vision changes.Yet, WE(the Christ within us) when firmly planted remain the same.

Once we allow Christ to truly live within us he consumes who we are and we become ONE. We begin to think like Him, love like Him, suffer like Him and Be like Him. When we wake up to the truth, accept life as it truly is, happiness suddenly comes forward. We begin to love all with unconditional love.

We begin to accept things as they truly are instead of believing they should be another way. We realize that the things we struggle with have come from the teachers of the world. Have you ever questioned where you learned certain beliefs from? Who comes to mind when you think about the things you struggle with?
Today, ask Christ within what you need to know and watch the truth unfold, the peace return, the confusion leave and happiness arise!!

Faith!!

I have to say I am amazed with God's loyalty. He says come to me for all things and believe. Even something as small as a lost wallet has improved my faith. I didn't KNOW this for sure and it seemed so small to ask for this to be found. But God showed me just how powerful and faithful He is to those who truly believe. I just knew to get up and go look for a wallet that was lost at a fair, my mind knowing this was just not practical and my faith saying yes it is!!!! WOW, I am impressed once again. The fair had a record breaking night with so much attendance. He uses these situations to show His favor and love for us. This is opportunity for Him to show His power to those who lack in faith or question His Goodness. How could I not tell others just how good my Heavenly Father really is. Most people believe it is unlikely that money will be recovered especially in this situation, this WAS true for myself also. But I did KNOW that my God is faithful and was urging me to BELIEVE in Him. This was not about recovering the wallet but about recovering the trust to a faithful God, knowing that ALL things are possible with Him. Lord, I ask for this to touch others, especially my son, who asked for it to be found. I pray that he knows it is You who came through for him, that You have showed favor to Your followers as encouragement to continue trusting and believing. I give You all the Glory and Praise!!