Setting intention

So I literally understand about setting an intention and the universe conspiring to see it through. It is amazing to watch life happening and at such a rapid pace. This makes me wonder exactly why I used to feel rushed or anxious to make things happen. It is scary to think something and then see it grow into existence. It is powerful and exciting but caution is necessary if we are not in control of our thoughts completely. I realize how important it is to stay grounded and balanced. I feel like I do nothing but so much is changing. Not just with myself but including others around me. It starts with one intention, prayer, thought, wish and then bam it all starts. I wonder if anyone else sees it. I don't think the ones around myself know what is happening or about to happen.

Patience!

Don't we all just love the lesson of patience. Well it is the theme of my life right now. There is not much else to do but breath, let go, wait ughhhh, not always fun. But there is no way around it. If I can find the balance between FEAR and ARROGANCE I can act out of LOVE. When I act out of fear, anxiety appears. When I act out of arrogance, ego appears. When I act out of love, love appears! I am arrogant I notice, I am impatient with other people and the place they are thinking from, I recognize having been there myself. I act out of fear because I know I am capable of thinking that way and am afraid to slip back. If I can find love we can all live in harmony and growth. Lord I ask for the grace to endure kindly and lovingly. I ask for wisdom and gentleness so I can deliver your knowledge in a loving manner. I ask for humbleness and faith to dissolve fear. I ask for patience so I don't act hastily and out of your timing. Remove the anxiety to act in my own way. Grant me peace!

Intention

Live every moment with intention. Be aware of why you are doing everything thing that you do. Know the purpose, have a mission of being constantly awake. Know why you dont want to be around a crowd at times, notice the intend to protect energy. Notice why you suddenly need interaction with others, notice the intent to share energy when you are fulfilled. There is a reason being "I just don't feel like" or "I feel the need for" these are a reflection of our deepest conscious awareness. Sit and watch your emotions, make friends with them, know your deepest desires. Know when energy need to be reserved or shared. BALANCE is the key to maintaining healthy energy levels. Become aware of those people that drain you or those situations that leave you empty. Also be aware of those that feed and refuel you. Meditation contributes to the awareness of energy and desires and intentions. Just 10 minutes a day can get you in touch with your true self and deepest desires. Meditation eliminates unnecessary panic and anxiety and unnecessary urgencies. Know yourself, know the difference between your thoughts and the thoughts passed down by other people's beliefs. So often, we are holding on the thought patterns that do not serve or align with our true beliefs. Practice mediation consistently to distract fear from taking hold of your thoughts. Fear cannot live where peace resides :)

Avoidance or denial

Sometimes it would be easier to "step out" of the picture and pretend some things arent happening. There is a temptation to turn off the tv, the news or anything that isn't happy or profitable to know. Part of my mind says to stay away from the negative and only cling to the positive. But ALL of it is along the path. So does it all come down to control and manipulation, even in our growth? Is avoidance just another form of picking and choosing the process. Staying around only the positive does create a sense of positive in ones life, mostly because you will see what you are looking for. So why can't the positive still be seen amongst an unpleasant situation? I believe it can through the eyes of faith!! Fear tells me to turn and ignore but faith tells me it will all be exactly as it is meant to be. It is ok not to be beaten down with grief every time something sad happens and it is also ok to be grief stricken when something sad happens. I don't seem as effected when I am open and not fearful. Even though some situations sadden my heart I know that things are changing, evolving, and purposely moving on. Long term alienation will stifle your growth process ~it is through our interactions with others that we learn our greatest lessons.

choosing happy

You are the only person responsible for figuring out your own journey. No one can make you happy although their presence in your life can add to your happiness. No one can make you sad but their presence and control can add more sadness to your life if you do not learn to detach their emotions from your own. It isn't easy to live this way without the tools to master the process of detachment and independence. Detaching from other people's problems and feelings is not an easy task for many people, especially if they don't understand love. Love isn't allowing other people to predict how you feel, what you should do and how you should behave. Love isn't all about feelings but about freedom to be yourself, support in tough times, companionship and growing together through the changes of life. Unconditional love isn't as easy to find as condtional love nor is it easy to understand. In a biblical sense, "nothing can separate us from the love of God" this is unconditional love. We often love with human love, this is the love of conditions, the love that increases if I do as you say I should. Spiritual love is unconditional love, the love that separates how I behave, how I look, from who I am. Why is it so confusing to understand that I am NOT my actions? YOU are not what you do, what you look like, where you have been but WHO you are. Everyone deserves love and happiness. Everyone is someone. Love without restrictions, expectations and judgment and then you shall find "happy".

Arrival?

When you think you have arrived.....what's next? If enlightenment (awarenesss)(awakening) is to arrive at the place of seeing, knowing and being in all truth, what comes next? Is it to live this way forever or to strive for a new place of arrival? Is truth better than denial? Some would say it's the only real option and some choose to go back into hiding behind denial. Both paths have their advantages, truth is the only way for the true self to BE but what happens when it turns out to be a lonely place because so many others turn away from it or choose never to enter? Do you turn away also or continue to flow through it? There comes a time when you have to choose how you want to spend the rest of your days, whether it be in truth or denial. There are some people who need the illusions to survive their current state of being but once the heart is ready for change, the eyes and mind begin to open and see reality. The only way to go back then is through self denial. Wow, what a fearful choice, to risk a new state of being or to stay in familiar unhappiness. The choice seems to come quiet often throughout life and hopefully you take the risk more than not. It may be scarry to keep moving forward to unfamiliar grounds but you can rest assured that the familiar place of unhappiness and illusions will always be there waiting for your return. Plus, there will always be familiar faces still waiting for there IF you chooose the path of return.

The greatest tragedy is not death but life without purpose

God says " I know what I am planning for you, I have good plans for you, not plans to hurt you. I will give you hope and a good future" God is able to do far more than we would ever dare to ask or dream of ... infinitely beyond our hightest prayers, desires, thoughts, or hopes. Lord I ask you to continue to protect me from my own selfish dreams, desires and goals. My commitment is to serving you full heartedly for the purpose that you created me for. I am whole, complete and fulfilled when I am protected by your grace and love. Nothing in this world is more valuable than my relationship with you. Keep your hand upon me protecting my soul from anything that may tempt me to serve anything other than your purpose. Show me your ways, guide me daily and help me to love as you do. Grant me a life of service that is completely fulfilling and joyful. It is not my services but yours done through my body. Your love is the love I share. May my thoughts be guided by you only. May all fear and anxiety of the future vanish and be replaced with your courage, hope, direction and mighty power. Remove the veil from the eyes of the blind and open their minds to your word. Protect my path from lies and deception and false beliefs. Thank you the blessing, the healings, you have bestowed upon this family. May we all serve you wholeheartedly from this generation forward and even those of before that are still here today. I stand firm on your promises of complete healing and wholeness. Step by step...day by day...moment by moment...may each of us listen attentively and actively serve you only, knowing this world can not offer what we most desire, which is unity with you!!

1st yoga class

Father I humble come to you this morning to use me as an instrument of your love. Open my heart and mind to your words, thoughts and ideas. Only you know what your people need. I am ever so grateful for the sense of acceptance and belonging and the awareness to not attach to it. Father have mercy on me, help me to stay in your will and not try to do it my way or in my power. I have no desire for self credit but for you to get all the glory and for your seed to be planted. Help me to fertilize what you have planted through your power only not mine. Lord I never never never want to be out of your will and thrown into the misery of the world. I am ashamed that it doesnt tempt me but I am not ashamed of You and what you have given me. Such wholeness and peace and love. A vessel of your divine love and healing Lord that is my desire for your people to feel you, to know that it is you, to yearn for more of you. Thank you father, keep your hand upon me and protect me from pride and ego. You are my only happiness and fulfillment. Keep me safe from the temptations of the world.

Student for life

Half way through yoga teacher training I have decided I don't want to teach. I want to be a student, I want to be taught. Lord I ask you to take over and allow me to be led by you. I have no idea what anyone needs, including myself. I feel misery led by fear. I need you to take complete control. I can't live like this. I beg you to have mercy on my soul and mind. Whatever you ask of my service is the only peace I have in this life. I am in hell, I am in pain, I am in my own misery. This suffering is total misery. I am lost, I just want to die. What is happening here. Help me please, have mercy and pour your grace upon my soul, clear my mind, clean my heart. Although unworthy of this I ask anyway. Show me father, I beg you to show me the way!!!!

What if

What if... we accepted things as they are? Loved the ones who make our circle? Became satisfied with the life we were given?
Who knows better than our creator himself? Life is this moment. Every moment of every day whether we use it to run from, to run to or to be in. I have come to realize how many rules confuse us. So many teachers in our lives who give us their beliefs, their rules, their advice. The walls that protect us also bind us!!!!
There comes a day when the walls come crumbling down. The day that no rules, attempts or solutions work. The day we become who we are, not who they want us to be!!!! Strong words, I know. So who are WE and who are THEY? You me and them, that's who. We are all alike, all created in God's image. We behave according to what life hands us. Our behavior is not WHO we are, it is HOW we respond. We are constantly changing, life is always changing. We must learn to live, to adapt, to accept or we become trapped in misery. Freedom reigns in each of us, the Freedom of Christ. It is a gift if we choose to accept it.
Live a little!! Let go!! Open hearts love openly.

forward toward forgiveness

How could I expect forgiveness and mercy if I can't be obedient. Once my eyes were opened I became accountable. O Lord forgive me for all my transgressions for all my attempts to find love outside of You. The more time passes the more I see my weaknesses. How can I ever be worthy before You. I beg for divine mercy, cover me in the blood of Christ, protect my soul from evil. Give me courage to move forward as You call me out. O my Lord, I hurt, I groan, I cry in utter despair. Have mercy on the others who live in this house. Support us through this journey, Your will be done. I ask for their sight to be restored, to see Your ways, to plant a seed of faith in his heart and a deep desire to seek You, have mercy on his soul. Guide the little one towards You. Keep Your protective hands upon Him and Your word in his heart. O My God, O My Jesus, O My Lord I cry out to You, have mercy. Grant me Your Grace, increase my faith in You.
My mind cant understand what is happening. Lord I am trusting You completely, I beg for Your assistant and support. Remove evil tactics and deceptive attempts so that I may see You clearly. Show me the way.

overweighted cross

As I gain a few pounds it seems that my burdens have also. The heaviness is felt in my feet, knees and hips. Lord, help me to overcome through your knowledge and goodness. I accept Your will and seek You daily as I move forward. Help me to do to the best of my ability and lean on You for the rest. I know all is done through You, I have not enough power of my own. Without complaint I ask for assistance to continue in a positive manner. I swallow the bitterness of suffering for the lives in purgatory and the lost of this world. May You continue to call them out and remove the veils from their eyes and the clutter from their lives and mine also. Protect my soul o Lord, keep your hand upon me. Put roadblocks where you choose to keep me from and green lights where you want me to continue. In Your faith I serve You. Forgive me for complaining and for trying to do more than possible by my own will. Thank you for the trials that have made my faith more rooted in You. How grateful I am for the opportunity to serve You.

After

After soaring high with you Father, I sit lowly, in pain and weak. By your example, teach me Lord. I am so weak and useless without you. I fail in my own power and in success I give you all glory for I am nothing without You. Show me the way to making the best of this situation. You have planted me here, You have cultivated the land, watered me and even weeded my surroundings. Now I am in full bloom through Your nurturing yet my pedals are limp this morning. My roots dig deeper for more of You. Lord, send Your agents of the land to show me what is poisoning me. Until then my roots hold tight and draw more of You, hoping for just a drop of Your water to help lift the weakness.
My soul knows that drought is necessary but my limp body doesn't understand and seeks nourishment from the land or shelter from the heat. It cries out for hydration and shade and protection from the feet that stomp over me. My hope is to become beautiful and strong for encouragement of others. That they may enjoy Your glory, Your favour, and put all hope in You as they draw bits of You from deep in my soul. Lord you have blessed me so, how can I ever thank you. I am so weak, after so much love You have poured on and in me, how can I possibly sit here and complain. I am only sad of the time this suffering takes from doing Your work. My heart desire is to spread You as far as I can reach. To show Your power and sovereign love to those who lack in faith. I can never thank you for all You have done and given but I can strive to serve You with gratitude. I have no strength of my own body but I have faith in the strength You will provide me to do Your Will.
Lord I pray to all the angels and saints who can intervene for me, to ask for their assistance to pray to You the Lord and God of all. Pray for heavenly wisdom and knowledge and understanding of this weak and useless body. Pray for improvement for Your usage. I accept whatever cross you send for the good of all. I only ask for your divine grace and mercy to endure. I owe You everything and only want time in eternity with You. I can only do what You will me to do. You have full and complete control of my soul, You dwell within and direct my thoughts, actions, words. Your will be done on earth as it is in Heaven. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Amen

God focus

One God, Father Son Holy Spirit. One purpose, fulfilling God's will for my life. No questions, no explanations necessary, no works of my own. Just seek God in all things, follow the example of Christ who was sent to teach, save and show the way!! Why does this get so complicated? Lord, help me to simplify this in my mind. I have nothing to figure out or KNOW. All I need is to follow you not people of this world. They are part of the world, part of my world and yours. As I follow your example, I think of you in the temple doing your father's will and not your parent's. Help us all to see the bondage of this world's views. Lord, help me to keep it simple. Seek you and love all. As I die to self, world and man I grow in your love.

St Therese pray for me

I ask St Therese, little flower of Jesus, to intercede for God's will for my life. As you continue to do earthly work from heaven, I ask you to submit my request to God. Send Him my love, help me to continue faithfully seeking until I can join you in Heaven. Bless me to continue your work here.

Exhausted

Lord grant me rest. Help me to stay focused on You.

struggle comes forth through disobedience

Phil 4:13 I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me. Why is this so hard to understand? The ego loves to get in the way. Satan loves to work through the fears of others. Lord I know what you are guiding me to do, so why do I keep allowing the fear to enter. When I submit to you, others show up and use the same tactics. This is very confusing. For years I understood this as warnings(roadblocks) and I remained put until everyone around me agreed. But this time: I KNOW what needs to be done and I am still struggling. I give you all the doubts and ask for Your protection and guidance especially if I am misunderstanding. Forgive my doubts, they are not in You, they are in my own insecurities that I am not worthy of Your divine wisdom, knowledge and presence. I absolutely positively believe it is You and it has been proven by the removal of Your Grace. THIS IS NOT WORKING AND FEELS LIKE WHAT I IMAGINE HELL TO BE!! I am sorry that I need so much reassurance but You promise that if we ask with pure intention then we will receive. I am asking for Your divine mercy to intercede for YOUR WILL IN MY LIFE. I purely desire to please You alone and have complete faith and trust that this is the only way I can tolerate life itself.

I beg for Your mercy and direction. I believe I am doing what is being asked of me. Forgive my doubts, fears, and weakness. I am nothing without You. I humbly pray for you to support me, reassure me that I am not crazy. Lord I am losing ground and sounding like a babbling fool. How can I serve You this way? I go to your people for answers and there is no one there to answer. I know I am nothing, how can I believe myself? I have to sit here and beg you or sleep until You wake me. I can not do this without You. How can I be so desperate for someone I cant see or touch? I feel like a fool but I can't go back!! It feels like a trap, I don't understand how this works. I just know I have to have You close by. Are you really gonna leave me completely ashamed and empty? I am not angry I am just lost. How am I to learn to follow You if I don't know what to do? Your word shows testing and trials, is this to prove faith in You. Your word says you can read our hearts, then you know I choose You before anything else. I must really have a hard time learning because I don't know what else I need to do. I CHOOSE YOU with or whithout fear, I have no choice but to choose You. Take me Lord if that is what You want. Take whatever You want just don't leave me!!!! Please, Lord You know my heart, I need You. 40 years I am so tired, this never leaves. Please show me what I am doing wrong, please I beg You. I called Your priest You saw me, You know I have been wanting but they always avoid me. I just dont understand. There is nothing I could do to make it different without You leading it, I just dont know enough. I dont assume to know it all, you have not given me this knowledge, how can I change what I dont know?
Satan cant do anything you dont allow him to do. You are all powerful and victorious Lord. What do I do now? I am at your mercy, I cry out to you. Tell me, just tell me, do what you have to do. I am not afraid of anything with You by my side.

So destiny is realized through the tragedy!!

I sit here this morning purely intrigued at how life unfolds. How we start in a perfect tiny bundle and grow into a large awkward package until we are made perfect in Christ. The mindset has everything to do with it. If I keep trying to figure it out or overcome then I continue to struggle. Only when I realize that it will unfold itself on the course do I notice how perfect God's timing is. As my faith and trust grow I become whole and healed. I begin to see how He works and feel connection and liberty. LIBERTY such a beautiful word!! WoW I feel His warm presence from the sunshine, His cleansing from the rain, His breath from the breeze and clarity from His power. What a wonderful powerful almighty soveriegn God I serve!! He is completely trustworthy and merciful~
The captives have been set free. Egypt no longer has power of me and my household. We have claimed the victory and continue forward towards complete wholeness and unity!!

Transition to perfection

This is a great image analogy of my growth in Christ. Life has so much to teach if I choose to remain open to its lessons. Only through His grace may I be in proper alignment towards perfection. I serve a great and mighty sovereign God!! He patiently waits on my return as I patiently wait on His!! Life is better tolerated when I do not try to make it more than it actual is. Yes Christ I will carry my cross also so that I may spend eternity will You!!

Waiting on the answers

Each premature decision I make that haunts me teaches me!! Thank you Lord for giving me the feeling of discontent as an indicator that something just doesnt feel right!! May You strengthen my awareness to recognize this immediately. I thank you for Your almighty protection and patience as I slowly learn.
My desire is to please You as I serve You full heartedly. I ask for assistance with the adjustments of a constantly changing existence. Guide my thoughts to make wise decisions especially in business as I assist You in creating this space of shelter in the world. May we always please You and direct Your people back to you. May they become aware of deception and truth as their eyes are opened. Heavenly Father I ask to help direct Your flock into a life of wholeness and love. May You plant the seed and through Your divine mercy allow us to water and nourish that seed. Only through You shall it grow and produce fruit. Prepare the land O Lord, cultivate, plant and send forth Your resources. Your will be done on earth as it is in Heaven. I anxiously wait on Your Return.

Help me, as the eagles are properly aligned, alert & focused, I wish to be also. My intention always set on pleasing You. My hopes always in You alone. My answers in Your Word. My rest in Your presence. Thank You Lord for Grace and Mercy!!